Modern biological science defines the menstrual flow as the blood letting of the uterus, in the absence of conception following ovulation. It's a part of the cycle, which's occurance and nature throws light on the dynamics of the cycle and is influenced by the production of hormones like oestrogen in the body.
In Ayurveda the monthly flow is 'raktha moksha' blood detoxification. And depending on the predominance of Vata, Pitta, Kapha, in the body, the nature of it changes. Vata giving scanty flow, Pitta making it profuse and early and Kapha making it thick.
In Tai chi. Its the very flow of chi, the sexual energy. And it even says how an exxagerated flow may lead to loss of 'jing'. In Hindu mythology, it is symbolised as the red seed, the very fluid of creation. So itself, Goddess is dressed in red in her most fertile forms.. In Tai chi, the act of attaining celibacy in women in describes as 'slaying the red dragon'. Intricate, long drawn out practices are prescribed for the same..
Last few months have seen a marked shift in my life.. in the diet chosen..in the meditation done..yoga practised.. not quite the almost impossible routines prescribed by Tai Chi.. but in general, restraint in life.. but..
what is so perplexing to me is, why my red dragon has being so emboldened after it all.
Its been happening actually since the Vipassana meditation.. Right on the 6th day of the meditation, as soon as the most intense of the practice was introduced, the flow began, unexpectedly, a week early.. I was perplexed... It is said when mind becomes still.. consolidated, body too follows.. flowing rasas.. rise up into tapas. Matter sublimating into spirit and energy. But it did not happen to me. Just the reverse.
An aberration i thought. But the aberration repeated itself last month. And when today too came with the flow, I knew it was not an aberration but a certain indication.. some deep change is happening in my body.. or maybe it has already happened..
I now have a 21 day cycle.. As opposed to the normal 28. And I just cant figure out why it should be so. What it implies..
I have heard such a short cycle happening to women in perimeneopause stages.. If thats this, it must mean my estrogen and progestrone levels have gone to really low levels, thereby there being not enough estrogen to suppress FSH and thereby messing up the cycle and causing uterus to shed its endometrial lining prematurely.... hmmmm... i know am no where near the perimenopause age.. but still maybe that means, through the logic of left brain am becoming less womanly..less sexual.
But from Ayurveda and Tai Chi's perspective, its not ovulation but the red flow that is the chi energy..creative energy.. I remember reading how decreased menstrual flow is a sign of decreased sexual vitality.. and an increase in that, shows a profusion of creative energy... Which may mean am becoming more of the creative Shakti, sexual and fertile...
So is the dragon quarter slayed or quarter emboldened???
Gosh I wish rather than knowing a dozen different views, I knew and could believe one way of looking at things, for certain..
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
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It is good to listen to your body. Stress or excitement can also influence your cycle. You are a psychologist so you know that our hormone levels can be altered by varying mental states. Do you think worry about your test could have been influencing you. In any case you seem like the most fertile woman in the world to me ;)
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