Mission: Sex them plants up.

Tried downloading Tarzan cartoon with Vuze. and when all downloaded and unzipped, it turned out to be Tarzan hard core. And I actually deleted it. which was more than 5 mins before I realised the aberration. I think I've stopped making eggs since I stopped eating them. Travesty. My pug nose would go un-inherited. The red lingerie set Rochelle gave me would go unexploited. More than 5 years of dedicated theory building will go un-empiricised. No singing Freak like me. No dancing DirtyDancing..

I just can't go back to Non Veg. Got the idea of non violenent eating too deep. 'Incepted'.
There is just one option left. Another Inception. On Plants!
Try corrupt the plants. Maybe I can keep some of them veggies bound in playboy covers, and keep them rice and wheat in white satin pillow cover. And maybe I can even play Olivia Newton's song Physical when i cook my Maggi. It oughta soak in then, all the good, carnal and sensuous! And thereby help me recorrupt myself! I always did believe one is what one eats. I just forgot to zoom in on the implications and realise what happen when one eats only Plants, who just leave seeds around when they want a little plant.
Really.
Vegetarians of the World, Unite!. Corrupt those plants! We have nothing to lose but our 'control'!

Lost in interpretation

I was 4 months old.
I reached for a bright pink ball kept near my pillow.
It was too far away, and my grasp failed.
My mom saw my extended hand, and she gave it meaning
She turned my personal monologue into a dialogue
O you want this?, said she, as she leaned forward to take the pink ball and put it in my hand.
Since then it has been happening, happening
People interpreting me. Telling what the sounds and moves i make, mean.
I have learnt the rules. learn to shape coherent responses and dialogue.
And they inturn have given me dolls, pals, golden medals, kisses and poetry
But have taken away, my own personal meanings for sounds and moves and very being itself.
Poorer, growing poorer, as my vocabulary increases..

The truth of my experience is so frustratingly, puzzlingly, non linear. Where are the lines?!

All's love , All's law

Read Browning today.. He said All's love.. All's law. Still haven't gotten over the depth in that statement.. I wanna unravel that line.. But not today, someday it will be truly coherent..

Shiva.Saraswathi; The Violence.The Compassion; in purification

Shiva was woken from his meditations and looked around to discover a world on the brink of corruption and being unsalvageable. Shiva decided it was time to wipe the slate clean. Shiva, the destroyer, opened his world destroying third eye attempting to destroy the three worlds.. Out came a terrible fire that threatened all existence.
There was panic everywhere. Only Saraswati remained calm. “Shiva’s fire burns only that which is impure and corrupt.”
She took the form of a river and with her pure waters picked up the dreaded fire from Shiva’s third eye. Within the folds of her water she carried the fire far away from the earth to the bottom of the sea where it transformed into a fire breathing mare called Badavagni – the beast of doom.
“So long as the world is pure and man wise, this terrible creature will remain on the bottom of the sea. When wisdom is abandoned and man corrupts the world, Badavagni will emerge and destroy the universe,” foretold the wise goddess.

Sweet grapes

Everyone knows the Sour Grapes syndrome.

I have just discovered another and also realised I suffer from it.

Sweet Grape Syndrome. Where the fox would say, " Gee the grape is too sweet. would get me hooked, hanging around this tree all day, all my life, missing my prowls. Better go find some sour grapes".

Probability theorems I learnt in high school tells me that the probability of a guy like him being there within 1 km of radius is something like finding a bacteria's feet in Simba's belly. But the damage has been done. The "resolution" has been stated and the call has been cut.

Its not just commitment phobia. Coz i have shown no hassles and indeed quite a lot of zest in putting commitment on the wrong vines. I must say its Masochistic commitment-philia cum Healthy commitment-phobia.

Give me some Lithium Carbonate!

Gourami

They have been ill before.
But I was never as worried as am now.. Especially Him. The majestic, calm leader ever, I don't have a name to call him..
He always seemed so profound. Never really felt like making him a silly fish, just like all named fishes sound and seem.
He l et me pet him today.
Something is eating into him.
Read all kinds of online diagnostic charts about Giant Gourami diseases..
Rots, Fungus infection, Ich, Velvet disease..
In all the 14 years of having them around, had never thought so many things can go wrong with aquarium water.
Its skin is flaying all over.. eyes are clouding up.. skin is peeling off...
it's almost like its being drawn out excruciating little by little...
This fish was one of the first entities that made me think about..vertical classification.. a kind of harmonic series in nature..
i would look at it, and I would feel like I am near a Jack fruit tree..
A jack fruit tree swimming around in my very own pond, just one wall with a window away from my study room..
I am going to sleep now , dear jackfruit fish.. Cant be near you at night. Nature's Elements, Self created Regiments, proscribe that.
I hope my morning tomorrow wont be missing you.. But if I will be, I want you to know. I have always respected you.